"...it's only in your head you feel left out or looked down on." I'm really happy that this song came up on Pandora, which song you ask? You tell me, comment below!
This is one of those songs that I don't intentionally flip to just to jam out to, but one that might come up during shuffle, or in this case, as a recommendation on Pandora. It's one of those songs that you can listen to whether you're happy or sad, feeling depressed or joyous.
Now I wouldn't say that I was particularly sad when this song comes on, but it's nice to remember that there's always something better waiting on the other side of this moment. Before this song came on, I was literally thinking about how I need to hurry up and get ready for school. There's so many things that I have yet to do, I still need to get my physical for tennis, read my book (and the critique) and prepare myself for a grueling semester of challenging courses for my junior year. Just before that I was on my Facebook looking at this group of people from around the St. Louis area that attended this camp earlier this summer. I was a part of the group, but for some reason I didn't feel like I belonged. People were planning pool parties and karaoke parties before school started and I couldn't go to any of them because I'd be out of town. Until this song came on, I was thinking that these people were doing things with out me...I actually felt "left out." But it's not their fault that I'll be out of town on those days, I can't help that. At this point, I'm just stuck in the middle *hint hint* of this situation. So I tell myself now, "Kendra, you are not left out. Stop trying to create judgments that aren't there." You know what my problem is? I get invited to things, and I turn them down. And then I get upset when I hear about all the fun stories from that activity. I may have a lot of things to do to prepare for this semester school wise, but my social life is trying to kill me from the inside out. DO SOMETHING!!! Say yes to something Kendra, you're eventually going to run out of no's when you need them the most.